February 2011
You deserve to be so much more than just "holding up" though :O I'm pretty terrible, not going to lie, but i'll survive :) x
Ah maybe I do deserve it. Why? What’s been going on?
My mom found my cigarettes, my step dad is a drunk, and i hate everything about myself and everything about my fucked up life … Ugh I hate my life so much! Everything is getting worse and worse! I’m going to kill myself, I want to kill myself. I think I will, I might.. Ugh I want too. I need too. Fuck why can’t it just be over when you want it too! Fuck.
I want to go to the smiths convention!!!!
I ate 640 calories today, ugh I NEED to lose weight~
Jokes. I'd so have that arm-wrestle rematch but you'll destory my tiny fingers. )x haaaha.
haha rematch ? we never even had a match!
Geez, you don't have to be hurtful. -_____-"
Haaaha, so mean. WHY HUH?
I’m not being mean haha
LOLOL, thanks for the correction.
NERD. (x jokes.
nerd.
NERD.
IM A NERD!
day 2 - where you’d like to be in 10 years
Hopefully just getting out of the marines, and on my way to college.
Day 1 - your current relationship; if single, discuss how single life is
I’m single. I’m deeply deeply in love<3
I hope you're okay <3
I holding up thank you<3 I hope your doing okay as well, how have you been?
Therapy only made me realise how much I miss my dad and how fucking emotional I am.. Im a fuck up. I need to smoke..
My therapy appointment is today… I’m freaking scared shitless.. Ugh
Fall asleep crying, wake up still crying. Ugh~
Tomorrow is suicide prevention day. Don't forget to wear blue and support the cause.
Ugh~
take me or leave me: 30 day challenge →
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day 1 - your current relationship; if single, discuss how single life is
day 2 - where you’d like to be in 10 years
day 3 - your views on drugs and alcohol
day 4 - your views on religion
day 5 - a time you thought about ending your own life
day 6 - write 30 interesting facts about yourself
…
Looking out my window on the second floor, not to see the view, but to think when will I follow through..
I cant keep going..
Being in love hurts sometimes..
Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.
Listen
Blue Lips by Regina Spektor
“They started out beneath the knowledge tree.
Then they chopped it down to make white picket fences,
And, marching along the railroad tracks,
They smile real wide for the camera lenses.”
I love Regina spektor!
